I wish...

I wish I had a friend, I would even be so greedy as to say I'd like two or three.
I think this sense of isolation would be lessened if I had someone who wasn't my husband or lived hundreds or thousands of kilometers away to talk to. I miss discussing religion, science, morality, sexuality etc etc etc.
My Husband and I have mostly covered this ground, and he hates going over subjects that we've already discussed. The fact that he remembers the conversation perfectly, and I have trouble even recalling that it occured is completely irrelevant!
I also miss shopping with someone that I'm comfortable with, tha random wandering that I can do with girlfriends that I've had for ages because we're both familiar with each others habits and tastes. There's no secret fear that the other person's actually very bored or mocking you. *sigh*
I'm so very very very bad at making new friends. That's why I married an outgoing, shameless, socially domineering male, to do all that hard introductory, getting to know you, first impression crap. He's so very very good at it that I've lost what little friend making skills I did posess. Uni's been a little helpful in that regard, but I find the 'friends' that I did make so intimidatingly cool that I can't see why they spend any time with me. I feel so certain that they secretly don't really like me and were only hanging out because we were thrown together by class times.
ARGH! I thought life and friendships and self posession all just came easily once you became an adult. I feel like an akward teen still, and I really don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life...