My Husband thinks it's hilarious that my mom won't let me lift anything. I'm not sure that he's realised that at some point he'll have to lift things instead of her : p
I'm so glad that the 'easiest' part of the pregnancy is happening during summer. But, oh my god, it's sooooo hot! This morning I had a short burst of determination that I wouldn't let the baby keep me tired and tied to the couch all day. So I got the kitchen clean, the bathroom clean, the bed stripped and sheets washed, and some of the mountain of laundry done. Then promptly collapsed with heat exhaustion until 8 o'clock.
And when I look back on how I judged some of my friends for maybe milking their pregnancies a bit too much I feel soo ashamed. It really is tiring to grow a person!
I've been having serious trouble trying to visualise the baby, the diagrams of 'your baby week by week' are interesting, but hard to associate with a tummy that I can't even see under all my fat. So I've decided that since it's about the size of a baby mouse, I'm going to imagine a humanoid mouselet swimming around in there. Curiously, this made me feel a little bit closer to 'him'.
I've also decided that it's a him. I just have a feeling, although we both desperately want a little girl. I'm sure I'll love whoever comes out, but I don't quite know how to deal with little boys. I guess I'll learn quickly though!
I'm lucky that my Husband had twin brothers when he was a teenager. So he not only knows how to look after very small children, but he knows how to deal with litte boys (apart from still being a little boy himself).
And... and... and... stuff. I have so much that I want to think and talk about, but no one to outlet to so far. Hubby needs time to digest things, he always has. If I give him a few days to stew on it, then he'll probably have the next year mapped out and plotted with precision. Whereas I haven't had much success when I've pushed him to talk before he's ready. So... no talking for a few days.
Now I just have to find a GP to refer me to whoever it is that's supposed to poke me periodically and check that everything's ok. And checking whether I'm ok, and the babies ok, and that I didn't have some sort of faulty test and I've just imagine all the symptoms. Which is basically my secret horror, so I'd like to get to that GP as soon as I can.
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